Hey Lauren ! This was my favorite look for myself from yearbookyourself.com!! It takes a little patience, but I was laughing out loud the whole time. I encourage you all to do it too. Save and share your favorite photo of yourself with me. Enjoy all. Ha Ha HA HA ! (do it Erin !!)

Its not like me to skip days of blogging, but things get out of control around here pretty easy. Quick update: Adam had a sub all week, he was happy, Sidney had a good week, Isabelle is away at a roller skating party, Isaiah is doing great, and Thomas drove back and forth to Charlotte everyday this week, he is tired, but looking forward to the game tomorrow.

           I am struggling to give the Lord a portion of my time. I feel like a pie, and by the time everyone has had a bite, there are only crumbs left. Is that enough ??

               I have been writing, and feel like I’m making progress, but nothing feels complete. Its like I have pieces of songs, little pieces of me that are just floating through my head.

                 my darkness held me captive in my own heart

                  until the light found me, and my shame fell apart

        Now I’ll sing of freedom and blue skies…

         of love stories and your blazing eyes

             you loved me always and across time

              you loved me through this sin of mine

            from broken down and blue to beautifully broken before you

                 you love me still

         the  bride is battered, but alive

           true love that waits, but will not be denied

Feeling ALMOST better. The kids are at school ,even Isaiah! So, that is a good thing. It was a long, lazy weekend. I think I stayed on the couch for most of it, the funny thing is…I’m not sure that I prayed one single time.You know why ?? Because, I was at home, so were my kids, all was well….and I forgot my beloved. Mostly because I didn’t really need him. Painful to think about. I owe him an apology.

                  Good thing is, he is always there waiting. Waiting for me to look his way.

                      I say good morning to the unknown

                       and I fall wih every other step

                      but you’re faithful you’ve shown

   and I’ll trust you ….again today

    and I’ll call you….again today

   and I’ll love you….again today

     and I’ll worship….again today

         and I’ll be here until I hear you say “well done, my sister, my bride!”

Sorry…4 out of 6 of u are down with a stomach bug. Peace be with you.

Things are rough over here at the Wirthlin house. Isaiah has had an upset stomach for 6 days. Sidney watched a boy at school attack another boy 4 feet away from her. Isabelle has found out that when we are all in bad moods, she is Not funny, like she thinks she is. And then there is Adam. Adam cried himself to sleep last night, because when he calls the Lord, he doesnt come. Today, the Lord gave me a word for Adam, maybe its for you, too. He showed me a mother bird chewing on a worm, making it nice and soft before she turned and fed it to her baby bird. The Lord says that it  is time for Adam to search him out. He wants all of Adam’s attention, and I can’t be his sole source of nutrition any longer.  Sad and exciting. I know Adam is up to the challenge, after all he is a growing boy and he is always hungry !

That is the only word I can come up with for the prayer meeting last night. Personally, I was expectant all day yesterday. The Lord simply would not let me be. I had to give praise. Even though my real life did not look that great, it became evident that the sacrifice of praise was being required of me. It was wonderful. GIVING to the Lord was wonderful.

                     Upon my arrival to the church it was clear that there was an electricity in the air, the PRAISE had to go on. And so it did. It was stunning…no entanglements with the enemy, only lifting the name of the most high GOD!! Becoming free in the knowledge that we are loved so wholly, and so Holy, and so well. That sacrifice was offered and received we danced and drank of the Lord willingly. STUNNING.

                 Later, I got into a group to pray and petition on behalf of some friends, but out of the corner of my eye, I saw my pastor, my friend, Steve. He was not praying for anyone, but instead was in the center, getting prayed for. A few minutes into it someone got the water and the cloth and they all began to wash his feet and pray and edify him. It was the most beautiful picture of the church that I have ever seen, The last person to wash his feet was his sweet wife, Becky. She took him in her arms and then she whispered words of love and washed his feet. HOW FITTING…..the bride bent low cleaning the feet of the bridegroom. It was what we all had done just minutes earlier in our sacrifice of praise to Jesus.  STUNNING.

The weekend is almost gone.We relaxed at home friday night, spent saturday at the lake with friends, and today went to church and came home and cleaned up all the messes we had left out earlier. Amazing, how quick it goes by. Sunday is a day where I prepare for the week ahead. Tonight instead of preparing in the usual ways, I will prepare my heart. I will prepare it for battle and I will prepare it for worship.A battle cry and a love song beautifully intermingled. Here goes……

Thats it ….one life to live, and when it comes down to it, all I have to offer, all I have to give is love.

 I have been looking for an encounter with the Lord, and when I dropped Isaiah off at school, I believe that Jesus was looking at me from inside Isaiah’s eyes. Fear has been broken off, because (i believe) that Isaiah has GRASPED …perfect love. And therefore, I have.

   So today I am a woman posessed, crazy in love, unable to sit still or carry on a conversation. How do I hold on to this ?

today thomas and I and 3 of our children spent some time with friends. I really did not notice the kids talking to dr. ben, but later they each, at seperate times, said to me “i think dr. ben really likes me!”

                           You know what I think ? Dr. Ben is one of those people that makes you feel like YOU are his favorite person in the world. I love it, I don’t understand it, but I love it.

                             I love it because that is how Abba makes me feel. Like my worship is the sweetest, and my words are perfect, and my face is the one he wants to see. He makes me feel like I’m his favorite one.