Is it too late , now that I am 35….to write a list of things I want to accomplish before I kick the bucket ? Surely, I could get some things done in the next 50 years, right ? well, here goes…..(some of these are silly, but still important to me).
thats all for now. Nothing is impossible.
I feel worn out and worn down, all thats left….a tarnished crown.Exhausted and exasperated, falling to the ground. But YOU, are my protection, and You are my prescription, and yes, even my conviction.
catch me before I fall, its your name I call
hold me while I crumble, in you made humble.
A new start today, like a newborn baby, teach me again, how to eat, how to speak, how to reach out when I need. Rock me to sleep, listen while I weep….I will begin again, and again, and again. “a new day “, thats what I heard you say.
HA ! He is a fifth grader, but not your average, run of the mill fifth grader. He got first place at the science fair with his homeade rocket !! Complete with a blue ribbon. I am ashamed of my fear that he would be dissappointed, ashamed, but eager for the next opportunity to believe in him.
Isabelle, on the other hand did not win anything. She handled it well, better than me. Why do I feel like these children are still somehow inside of me, and connected by flesh and blood to my heart ? I know. Its how God feels, duh.
ps. I will post a picture later. peace….hope you don’t need it as much as I do.
I did not set out to be one. When I was little and people would ask what I wanted to be when I grew up, I did not answer “dream squasher”. But somehow, I’ve grown into it. My husband has at least 2 new ideas/ inventions a week, and more times than not, I roll my eyes. I know what you are thinking, and trust me, I feel bad about it.
Its science fair time at school. Yipee. Adam had a HUGE plan. One that I just could not see coming to fruition. What is wrong with my vision ??? I think I need glasses for my spirit. A new perspective, maybe.
Not only did Adam (with daddy’s help ) make his project happen….its great ! Sometimes I let the fear of the people around me getting hurt and dissappointed stop me from encouraging their dreams and passions. I don’t want to do that anymore. I am confessing with my mouth, and turning my heart. signed…..
a FORMER dream squasher turned dream WARRIOR.
Hello ! I am often asked what makeup or skincare I am using, as well as the brand of my jeans and shoes. So, here goes a list of my favorite things….hope you find it helpful.
My fragrance of choice is Amazing Grace by philosophy. People always ask me what I am wearing. It doesn’t give Thomas a headache, its light and feminine.
This blog seems self-indulgent, but it was fun. Have a great day !
Isaiah is doing great ! He was back at school yesterday, eager to tell all about his surgery. The dr. did not have to take out his adnoids, therefore, it was a ten minute procedure. It went smooth. The Lord always gives me beyond my expectations.
On sunday, Rich preached about the dreams for our lives. It was good, a new perspective on an old subject. Here is what I am wondering……How many of us are in the midst of having our dreams re-ordered RIGHT NOW and don’t know it ? If I am too busy holding on to the dream that I have, the one that I have ordered….will I miss the one that God has for me ? I don’t want to. I want my dream and God’s dream for me to be one in the same. I am anticipating great things, and as I said before, HE always delivers more than I expect…..I am really excited. I know that this is the time where my Abba is working on my character, and thats okay with me, I want to be able to hold this dream , to stand up straight underneath the weight of it.
So, I am asking the Lord to relieve me of myself and MY dreams, and re-order the dream. The prophetic journal that I got at the women’s retreat said “make a statement from the inside out”. I know that is a clue….I will keep you posted.
For a while now, almost 2 years, we have had a lot of real estate for sale. At times it is extremely discouraging, and at other times, we feel the love of the LORD so strong that everything else fades away.
We have been praying that one of our houses would sell, its been a daily prayer for a long time now. The thing is, we have been so focused on that , that we almost missed the other ways the LORD was blessing us. It started at Christmas, we were struggling and out of the blue, dear friends gave us 500.00 !WHOA….we knew it was the Lord and we were grateful. The other day, my atm card was expired , but I went to chick-fil-a anyway to get myself a soup. The nice man at the window informed me that he could not take my card in its expired state, so I said “oh, sorry, I don’t have any cash”. He looked at me and smiled and said, ” thats okay, here take your food, and have a great day”. I was shocked . And grateful. Once again, I felt the familiar warmth of the Lord’s hand in this. It wasn’t long after that, we were invited to an expensive dinner out with friends because they had received gift cards for Christmas. Didn’t they realize that they could have gone out again if they had not invited us ?
Last week, we had friends invite us to dinner and a movie ,for one of their birthdays. Upon further examination of the invitation, we realized that it said “everything is on us” . Meaning , they were paying our way….we felt blessed that we are that loved. At Bloom, a lady offered me her savings card, so that my chips would be buy one, get one free. A small thing, but a gentle reminder tht we are loved, protected, and blessed.
Sunday was the kicker. Those of you who know me, know that Isaiah has ear surgery tomorrow.Surgery that our insurance does NOT cover. Sunday morning, a friend concerned with offending me, opened her mouth and let the love of the Lord flow out…..she said “we have prayed about it and the Lord said for us to pay for Isaiah’s surgery”. I was not offended. I was loved.
It has not come in exactly the way we asked for it, but have no doubt, the LORD has supplied ALL of our needs, and most of our wants, too. So tonight as I sit and prepare myself for tomorrow, I know , I am not alone. Not only is my Yeshua here, he has surrounded me on every side with friends. Friends, that are family.
I posted a while back about Isaiah’s hearing problem, well here is the update….large amount of fluid behind the eardrum. He will be put to sleep and have the fluid suctioned out, at that time the dr. will will put tubes in (again, he had them when he was 1) and possibly remove his adnoids, too. I know it is simple, but it is traumatic anytime your child is put to sleep. So, pray for his peace of mind….He is not thrilled.
The good news is, he should be able to hear perfectly when the surgery is done !! For who knows how long ,he has been hearing as if under water, what a happy day it will be when he can hear us clearly !!
I believe that the Lord showed me that this hearing problem caused Isaiah to feel isolated, thats the word I keep getting, but no more…….victory is in site! Isaiah will be stronger for this, he already is. I am so grateful for every blessing ,big and small.
Let me start out by saying, if you are on face book…great, I enjoyed it too, this blog is not meant to offend you.
That being said, the Lord clearly told me to deactivate my account. I was kind of bummed, and he simply said “its a time filler for you”. I knew this already . Facebook made me FEEL connected , without really connecting me to anyone. He said something else too, and you are really not going to like this. (then again, I’m sure it was just for me) The Lord impressed upon me that facebook, for me, was voyerism in its most innocent form. Wanting to know what everyone else is doing every minute of every day…..its like watching life, feels kind of creepy now that I think about it. Like being a peeping tom.
So…I will try to fill my time LIVING life, rather than watching it for a while.
p.s its just an account of a conversation I had with the Lord…anytime he speaks, I think its blog worthy.
Well, tonight is Adam’s 5th grade challenge play. Its called “a year in the life of the peanuts gang”. I am so nervous and excited that my stomach is in knots ! This is just another example of how Adam can do ANYTHING he puts his mind to. When auditions started, months ago, I found myself preparing him for the worst.
Why did I do that ? I was afraid he would be dissappointed. Well, he picked out a monologue from the classic movie….nacho libre, and he worked on a funny dance, and then…he prayed. Personally, I thought it was a little ambitious, but he had his mind made up. He was trying out for ….snoopy! It was the only part he was interested in, and he set his eyes on the prize. After several callbacks and weeks of deliberation, we found out…..HE GOT IT!!
Tonight is the night. I get to watch my son play a part that he felt belonged to him from the start. I get to have my faith restored, that when you want something bad enough and you work hard….it CAN be yours. These kids, they teach me something new every day.
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