I’ve heard people say, “cover me, LORD”. I always assume that means protect me, hold me, keep me from harm. And then recently, I heard someone say they asked the LORD not to uncover them. As in, please don’t show my heart break, my inner most feelings. It was interesting to me. As believers, we shouldn’t be in hiding, however, the LORD will cover our soft spots until the time is right for the reveal. Where HE will undoubtedly shine light into the dark and restore the broken bits.  There is only one light in the darkness !

And one more thing….I’ve heard people say ,”i’m losing my religion”. What would happen if people said, “i’m losing my humanity, going to prayer, want to get healed of this human condition” ??? Why not think counter-cultural ?

                          I want more !

It’s me again, Adam. Today, right now…..I want more. Back at my old church in Fort Mill (morningstar),kids were INTO it. I mean eight, nine and ten year olds walked around the church with twitches, praying, yelling, and healing in the Lord’s name. But at my church now…not so much. Rosie(my mom), says that maybe I am the one to start the movement. But I don’t know how. If I get my “church” friends together and say, “hey lets pray and dance and yell”, they’d say, “heck to the naw” (no). Then it would just be me by myself, alone. Sooooooo, I need you to keep on praying. Pray for courage for me.

PS these are some of my morningstar friends.

yes,I did. It is a change. It has a little JOAN JETT to it. Interesting.It made me feel a little different today, funny, huh ?

            We did the pool thing today, said, “don’t run around the pool” approximately 57 times, fought about swimsuits and modesty with Sidney, threatened Adam’s life if he did not stop tormenting the other children…ohhh the relaxation of the first pool day of summer.

stray dog update- The dog ( aboy, by the way) lived here for 4 or 5 days, eating our dog food and driving us crazy, and then one day a van pulled up , opened their back door, yelled “gus !”, and just like that, the dog was gone. Thank you JESUS for blessings, big and small.

I ducked out of my duties on the childrens worship team, yes, I am a guilty mess because of it. I just could not get up that early, nor did I have one minute to learn the songs. I ALMOST ducked out of church altogether, my flesh cried out “sleep”. But, the Butcher made me coffee, and I got up. Thank goodness, no, make that thank GOD.

                        One of my best friends Kat has been battling an illness for so long now, I actually forget how long it has been. I didn’t realize it, but I had started to forget what she used to be like. She is a beautiful dancer, with a beautiful spirit. She is the most graceful person that I have ever seen. Even her fingers are graceful. She is powerful in a quiet way. The illness has caused extreme pain in her joints, and her jaw bones, her nack and back. I call it the illness simply because there has never been one definite diagnosis. The illness is a thief that has stolen her dance. But it has not taken her soul.

           This morning at crossroads, the LORD was there and it was evident that ANYTHING could happen. By the second verse of the first song, Kat had come out of her seat, right up to the front, lifting her arms and dancing…giving her sacrifice of praise to ABBA. I could not be contained at this point, and owe apologies to the people around me. My moans and screams of intercession for her pain and tears of joy at seeing her worship were just too much to hold in. I began to shake ,or maybe the building did, I am not sure. It was JUST WHAT I NEEDED….an encounter with the one true GOD.

          I know that tonight and tomorrow Kat may be in tremendous pain because of her dancing today, but she could not hold her heart back from her love for one minute longer. I am choosing to believe in faith, that Abba will reward her obedience and give the complete healing we are asking for.

               Something broke free today. Something is coming in dance and in worship. Steve was so right when he said “This one is gonna cost the enemy”.

              Kat may have been down, but she is not out ,and every time she moves, she crunches the enemy under her feet. It set me on fire ,and reminded me that sometimes we are called to do what hurts…..the question is…will we ? Kat did. AMEN.

First weekend at GLAM has come and gone, I am in shock. My body and my mind. It sooo much to take in. The support is overwhelming, I am so grateful.

     Tomorrow we will say goodbye to our neice and her beautiful baby. They are moving to Texas to meet up with her husband who has been in Afghanistan. We are sad to see her go, seems like no time at all that she was running around and playing at our wedding. But that has been almost 14 years and she is a wife and mommy now. whoa.

                Time keeps moving ,and faster now than ever….I want to stop it. Is that so wrong ?Enjoy it Nia, every second, even the nights you are awake the whole night. It really does fly by. You are beautiful and such an amazing mommy to Ella, it has been a pleasure watching you grow up. Love.

ps….ok thats it, my brain is hurting, if there are typos and misspelled words, just get over it:)

Our house has does not have a for sale sign in front of it, but the ones to the left and right of us do. Our company owns them all. After 4 months of no showings, we have one tomorrow…for all three. REALLY? The same weekend that I am opening GLAM, you have to be kidding, right? I have been up to 1 am every night for a week, my mind is wrecked, my kids are attention starved, my dogs neglected, and I am…….so GRATEFUL. The LORD covers me and carries me, He sees the things that I don’t see and when it comes right down to it…He knows how strong I can be. This is His favor, there is no doubt. I am standing and my hands are wide open……..Let it rain.

I am off to the last school function of the year, Isabelle’s awards day ! There is not a lot that I can say about Belly that you don’t already know about me. We are like twins, split-aparts. Look at her, you’ll see me, look at me, you’ll see her. Not always a good thing. She loves justice and will tell on somebody if she has to….so will I. She loves presents and will make up a holiday to get one if she has to….so will I. She is inquisitive and wants to know the WHOLE story RIGHT NOW no matter what else is going on…..ME TOO !

Sometimes I can’t look at her, thats how beautiful she is. Isabelle is in love with life, and does everything with gusto.

p.s. read down delow if you missed my guest blogger yesterday.peace.

Adam has been asking to post a blog on here for a couple of weeks…and so, I have ok’d it. Its real and raw, the thoughts, struggles, and joys of an eleven year old heart. You can catch up with him here on Tuesdays. You won’t want to miss it.

It’s me, the notorious Adam, son of Rosie and the Butcher. I’ve hit a roadblock today with the Lord. I’ve been living the life of my flesh. This school year has been hard for me (sin wise). My teacher….well, thats a long story.(maybe next week). Please pray for my heart. I will update you. Peace out.

               p.s. everyday is a new day and I am gonna try to be with the Lord for 30 minutes starting now.

We are coming to the close of Isaiah’s first year of school(I kept him at home the last half of kindergarten), he is excited and so am I. It was a challenge, that to him seemed impossible. He had anxiety attacks just thinking about school, actually getting out of the car was a whole different story. With prayer and persistance and loving, and maybe a little bribing(we now have 28 webkinz), WE MADE IT !

I love you Z. I think you may be the most stubborn person ever, but also the bravest. Don’t ever give in , don’t ever give up, you have what it takes to change the world !!

           Its a funny morning. Adam is having his fifth grade graduation. With all the crazy business surrounding our new business, I had to stop and just think about my baby for a few minutes.

                  I am and have always been in love with Adam. I think its a first-born thing. I made so many mistakes when he was a baby, fed him every time he cried, rocked him to sleep, let him fall asleep in my bed…just to name a few. He doesn’t hold those against me.

            Adam is 11 now, and really a joy to me. He can have a conversation with grown ups, he will pray if there is a need, he feels things very deeply for someone his age. And of course, he is breathtakingly handsome.

            Its hard to believe that so much time has passed, I know it has to be this way, but it is bitter sweet for this mother’s heart. I am eager to see the man that he will become, but there is some grief for the baby boy that I knew.

He is great to be around, I can watch tv with him, wrestle with him, snuggle him, hold him….right now, I have the best of both worlds…..man-child. I am going to try and be present, I don’t want to miss a minute.   Happy Graduation Adam ! I love you more than all the atoms that make up all the matter that is the earth. ( if that doesn’t make scientific sense, he will tell me when he gets home !)