I got a job. A full time job. Talk about a shock to the system. I am tired mentally, and physically. I have been in pjs all day today ….just because I can be. I have worried about the transition a lot. That is putting it mildly, I have obsessed about how the kids will do, and how the house will run. So far …so good. I had an idea to get a notebook for Belle, and one for Z. I write in this notebook every night before bed, and then leave it out in the kitchen for them to read when they get home from school the next afternoon. It has a list of things for them to do, get a snack, start homework, take out the trash….and then I write a paragraph or so asking about their day, telling them that I can’t wait to get home, and see their faces, and to write me back if they want to. So far Belle has written both days, Z none. Shocking. Not really. I’m not sure the notebooks mean anything to them yet, but they mean everything to me. There is power in the written word. The power to speak to their spirits even though I’m not with them. There is power in showing them that you have the time to sit down and write, even though you don’t get to come for the field trip. That notebook goes a long way toward easing my mommy guilt. I recommend it, even if you don’t work. Sometimes you can be far away even when you are at home.
The husband of a dear friend of mine wrote her a poem. He is not a poet, or a writer, but his spirit is connected to the LOVER above all other lovers, and he listened to his heart, and wrote the most beautiful love letter. There is power in the written word. Power, and healing, and…hope.