birth pains

Why are they called BIRTH pains, if they last forever ? I love you so much Erin, but watching you birth an adult is much more painful, than watching a sweet baby enter the world. There is more blood, more gore and more pain. I do believe, I have to, that there will be more joy, too.

  I wrote this a long time ago, but it is still relevant and its for all of us…mothers of infants,mothers of teens , and mothers of adults.(sorry its long)

                             perfect and lovely, formed inside, I kept on growing

                                      without even knowing, just who you would be

                            then it came, the day you would arrive…when will this pain subside?

I love you more than I ever knew I could love, a piece of heaven for me from above

                                 when you were three, we butted heads,you blazed your own trail

                                slept in your big boy bed. I’d say be careful, you’d roll your eyes

                            Where is my baby….the one with the big brown eyes ?

     I love you more than I ever knew I could love, a piece of heaven for me from above

                          At eight, you shine so bright and I’m still the love of your life

                          you tell me I’m beautiful and I’m still hopeful…things will never change

          In a flash, time has passed, you choose your friends over me, this hurts….

                 more than delivery…

  I love you more than I ever knew I could love, you hurt me more than I ever knew I could hurt….what is this tearing, tugging and pulling at my heart ? When will it end ?

                   When did it even start ?

Now you’re grown up and I can see, the man that came from inside me

       I love you more than I ever knew I could love, my piece of heaven just for me from above.

  Birthpains that came from the start…I’ll carry you always inside of my heart. I love you.

                         

call me

                   call me to your court, my king

                    I’ve been getting ready and now I’m waiting

                     so call me softly, call me love

                        call me softly, call me love

        others may try, but none can satisfy

                 call me softly, call me love

       find me where im broken, this place where I hide

            call me softly, call me love

         put your hand in mine, fingers entwined

          I want to feel your palm against my own

           yes my Lord, it feels like home

             it feels like home

new song

                    In the light of your face my addictions become convictions

                  I pick you up just to let you down

               whats my grace story….my spiritual inventory ?

            whats your reaction to my distraction ?

                 I wanna be gripped by you, stripped by you

                wanna take a chance and see it through with you

                I wanna be gripped by you, stripped by you

                wanna take a chance, be romanced by you

Theres a sound in my chest, a word you haven’t spoken yet

     my throat is dry and aching, I’ve been calling you

          soak me…..cover me…quench this thirst

        dried up…I know, I’m not the first

            to love you

                to call you

 

 I wanna be gripped  by you, stripped by you

wanna take a chance and see it through with you

bridge- I’ve looked mercy in the face, and I’ve walked in your grace

   I’ve stood in the desert, searching for my own place

   I’ve run miles and miles, just to end up at the truth

           that no other love will do, no other love will do

I wanna be gripped by you, sripped by you

         wanna take a chance  and see it through with you

       

open

           drag me back, pull me back to you

            forget what I said, when I cried and stayed in bed

               I was just living from my head

 I want to be easy to get to, Holy spirit, easy for you

   open my heart back up God, open my song

        living from my heart again, singing from my heart again

spend it all

              this bottle is broken and empty

         all that I hold dear, given without fear

           i’ll spend it all

      poured out on your feet, never tasted love this sweet

      the fragrance is rising, my heart is racing

        i’ll spend it all, i’ll spend it all

       dry you with my hair, dignity stripped bare

   just to hear your voice, a love with no choice

      i’ll spend it all, i’ll spend it all

because you’re worth it, you deserve it, and so i’ll pour it out on you, give my heart to you

              i’ll spend it all, i’ll spend it all

chosen

                     I have been chosen by you

                      perfected in your sight, revealed in your light

                     I have been chosen by you

                       you called my name,and then changed my name

                         with your voice, you took my shame

                       I have been chosen by you

                    wretched in my wickedness and lost in my wilderness

                      and now, set apart in your holiness

                      you knew me in my mothers womb

                       you reached out to me from your tomb

                     I have been chosen by you….

                      I am yours and you are mine

                          from the beginning, to the end of time

                     I am yours and you are mine

dna

                 shaking, shivering, slipping away

                 going with daddy, flying away

                 journey through the walls of time

                  songs of old….songs of mine

                 smiling, singing, shining light

                   lay down with daddy, rest tonight

                   running through this heart of mine

                  sins of old…..before my time

                release, restore, refresh

                  this spirit covered by flesh