Author Archives: angie wirthlin

do over

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There are some things in life that you feel you could do better, if you were given another go at it. I feel that way about pretty much everything in life….even though I don’t like everything about getting older, I LOVE the wisdom that comes with it. Everything I did when I was young, I can do better now(seriously) You young people might not believe me, but it is true. For example

  • sports….much better now
  • driving….much improved
  • cooking and cleaning….down to a science
  • parenting…..looking better all the time
  • being a wife….i try not to think about the first 5 years, it only gets better from there.
  • being a daughter….having one of your own really makes you a better one.
  • fashion….please! I have pictures from when I was 24 where I was trying so hard to look like a proper mommy and wife, that I actually look older than I do now.

There is something to be said for learning and growing. I may not get a do over, but I can look back and make the future better because of it. I am 34 and just now getting to know myself……it feels good.

                                          

high

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Today we sang “my life….be lifted high, my love… be lifted high”.And then” Jesus, be lifted high”, and I found myself thinking of all the things I lift higher than him on a daily basis, and so I laid them down.

                            Jesus may I lift you higher than…..

                                my emotions

                                my wants

                                 my house

                                  my bank account

                               my family

                                  my friendships

                                my diet

                                   my pant size

                              my kids’ school

                               my writing

                            my insecurities

                             my fear of man

              Be lifted high Lord…..be lifted high.

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 I am anticipating a lovely weekend with my family.No school or work on monday, oh happy day ! I love the feeling I get when I don’t have to do anything I don’t want to do. I might have some friends over, but even that will be relaxed and sweet.

                                God is restoring friendship in our lives, slowly and gently….it feels good. This week has been a learning week for me. Several lessons. Faith, when the situation seems hopeless. Courage, when you should be scared to death and friendship….unwaivering, constant, careful, christ-like, joy filled, strong, giving, and touching.

                    It was good to see that kind of friendship. When trials and snares come my way…I know who I am calling. There is a group of women at crossroads (you know who you are) that are WORKING IT OUT !! This kingdom life, I mean. I am glad I know you and have you on my side.

groupie

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              I will not back down in my pursuit of you LORD. I will not allow my spirit to settle down into auto-pilot mode. I will not be satisfied until I have an all access, backstage pass to you. I will lose control, maybe I will have to walk through coals. I will not be satisfied until I love you like I love my own soul….until I love you like I love my own soul.

                             mark 9:49 you will all be seasoned with fire

as christians we will be seasoned with trials that purify our faith.

read it out loud

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The enemy has been defeated, death couldn’t hold you down, we’re gonna lift our voice in victory, gonna make our praises loud !!!! repeat, repeat, repeat.

                              These words are my meds. I really needed them yesterday, oh well….I have them now.

“wish you were here “- Pink Floyd

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I am really missing my friends in fort mill, s.c. not because the church there is in a revival, but because I knew some wonderful people. Between me and the enemy, i was convinced that i was all alone there, and when things in my life started to unravel….I jumped ship. So, here i am…..simpsonville, s.c. And guess what….same old story, i am as alone as i want to be. It sucks. I will walk this out, and i will learn what it is you are teaching father. I want to be a content person, if i pray for this, will god take away my comforts ? I don’t know, but I know that I miss my friends and I am having a lonely day even though the sun is shining and the birds are singing. wish you were here.

spend it all

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              this bottle is broken and empty

         all that I hold dear, given without fear

           i’ll spend it all

      poured out on your feet, never tasted love this sweet

      the fragrance is rising, my heart is racing

        i’ll spend it all, i’ll spend it all

       dry you with my hair, dignity stripped bare

   just to hear your voice, a love with no choice

      i’ll spend it all, i’ll spend it all

because you’re worth it, you deserve it, and so i’ll pour it out on you, give my heart to you

              i’ll spend it all, i’ll spend it all

Even lion’s need mommies

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a little over a year ago, the Lord gave me a word for Isaiah(my 6 yr old) He said “Isaiah has the heart of  a lion ” I thought this was a pretty darn good word, and Isaiah was pretty happy about it too. A few  weeks later Isaiah began this roaring thing he would do instead of speaking. It almost drove me out of my mind. So one night at bedtime, when Isaiah was mad and roaring at me…I cried out “Father help me, what do I do ? You gave me this man child, I don’t know what to do!” The Lord simply said “even little lions need mommies too.”

                 

Isabelle’s mothers day program

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Whenever I go to a program at school, I sit there quietly among the other mothers feeling shy and inadequate.UNTIL….my child comes into the room, in this case,Isabelle. And then I become animated. Its almost as if I am saying “that one is mine, isnt she great ? Here I am, the mom of the best, cutest, smartest, most likely to succeed child !” My kids have the ability to bring that out in me. I take credit for their goodness, who am I kidding, their greatness. The funny thing is….Isabelle is thinking the same thing about me ! She thinks I am the smartest, coolest, prettiest mom there, and she can’t wait to introduce me to her friends.

             Its a great relationship that we have, both of us infatuated with each other.

God says” its that way for me too angie, your enthusiasm for me is returned and even more. so come angie, come like you promise you will .” (no kidding, he just said that !)

lust

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lust- an overwhelming desire, ardent enthusiasm

               I want Him. I can’t stop thinking about Him. The way my heart rate changes whenever he comes in the room. The way I can tell he is looking at me, cause I can feel my face glowing.I want to know everything about him. I want gravity and dignity to go away. I want to jump up higher and higher, to sing louder and louder. Jesus, come like you promised.