Thats what I mean….and I’m feeeeelin’ gooood. Ever heard that song ? I really need that. I have been having bad dreams. The Butcher assures me that these dreams are not warnings, simply manifestations of my fears. Fears that have plagued me …..forever. I pray them away, I cast them out, I believe and declare that they are gone…..but sometimes they come back. The dreams are vivid and detailed, they leave me unsure, unbalanced, and uneasy. In a nutshell….I have fear of death, fear of failure, extreme guilt whenever I leave the kids( even for a datenight), and general anxiety. I am growing tired of it. Increasingly tired. I have been applying for jobs and trying to be hopeful. I am powerful….that is what God says…what does he know? I actually have to ACT on what he says to make it so. It’s up to me. Do I stay or do I go ? The place I am now is dark, depressing and desperate….I know that I can go to a place that is light, hopeful….happening. Why would I even question it ? My spirit man feels malnourished, dehydrated, and infected with this world. ENOUGH. I don’t want this. I have let my spirit man become lethargic, flabby and tired….Thank God that every day is a new day. Thank God. Holla!