between dust and laundry, I found a song

This blog is a mixture of the spiritual woman I want to be and the flesh and blood woman that I am. So, even though I am in the midst of cleaning the house and doing the laundry…living an ordinary day, God gave me this song.

                               I Praise

Theres a goodness in me, I’m more than what you see

Theres a light inside me, its him, his purity

I fight against the darkness and I fall down in my pride

you could swim in the river of all the tears i’ve cried

but when it all comes down, to the lost being found…..

I wake up in his grace, I feel the warmth on my face…and I praise

 I praise, I praise….I praise

Theres a truth inside me, his divinity and it moves through my heart

 sometimes it tears me apart, its a wave that crashes in, covers every sin

 so when it all comes down to the lost being found….

I wake up in his grace, I feel the warmth on my face..and I praise

I praise, I praise…I praise

march 5th

Just another day at home with my 6 year old son, Isaiah. Did I mention that Isaiah has decided not to go to school ? Why am I surprised ? Isaiah is the kid who can go without food for days, just to prove a point. I was not able to potty train him until after he was 4. When he thought that I had given up (actually, I had ) he went to the potty on his own. He flat refused to go to pre-school, and sunday school ,too.So, now we are at home together and what I am realizing is just how much I am like Isaiah. The Lord is giving me a clear picture of my stubborness and unbelief. Lord, I believe but help my unbelief.

isabelle-7 years old

she believes in fairy dust,that sparkly red shoes are a must. In fairy tales and wedding veils, that every girl has a dream and all dinners should end with ice cream. She believes that good will win, that Jesus died for our sin.

I believe you know the truth,you forge ahead and make a way, you see the place where angels play. By the way, your hair smells like heaven.

everlasting love…as told to me by my one true love. revisited.

I have loved you with an everlasting love,therefore with loving kindness ,I have drawn you. Jeremiah31:3

I have loved you with an everlasting love,  everlasting love.  I was there when you asked me to come , and stay forever.  I was there… when you gave yourself away too soon.  I was there when you walked your own path,  and saw only your view. And  I was there when you longed for love so desperately that you gave away your …dignity. Still, I was there when you set your sights on another woman’s husband, and I was there when you became his wife.  I was there when you realized  together that you were lost, and just exactly what that would cost.  I was there when you lead him to the cross.  You are redeemed in me , perfected in me.  You are my victory.  I have loved you with an everlasting love. Everlasting love.

P.S. I wrote this in 2008. The Lord reminded me of it today when I got home from the women’s retreat. It is MY history, but I am redeemed, and it has become HIStory. The Lord has called me whole-hearted, I believe that he has written that name on his thigh,  and sealed it upon my heart.