Really ? If I make a claim…like – I love you, I am not judging you…..the testing begins….as if it’s on some kind of autopilot. It is simple for me to love all kinds of things. But when it comes to my kids, how do I get them to understand that I can HATE their actions, and love them all the while ? Are we allowed to judge actions ? To say- hey that’s wrong, you need to turn, and walk away from that as fast as you can…or am I supposed to be love and peace, and ignorant bliss all the time ? I feel like I am on a roller coaster, and not a fun one. My stomach just dropped, and I can’t seem to get it back.
So to all of you moms, who say how much you are annoyed by older moms saying – enjoy every minute ! Ha, what we mean is – you can’t see around corners, so enjoy the physical tiredness that comes with chasing, and diapering, playing store, and car trip chaos. Getting up with your kids in the middle of the night means knowing where your kids are at night. So try your best to enjoy the terrible twos, and thrilling threes….It’s hard in every stage, but only an older mom has the experience to tell you that, so don’t begrudge her advice. And if she repeats herself chalk it up to the MENTAL exhaustion that comes from having teenagers. Thats all.
I’m handling this latest test the best way I can….love is not smooth like a river stone, it is jagged, and rough. So, thats how I feel today. Jagged, and rough.