posers,fakers, and wannabes……

This is actually the title to the book that I am reading right now. Its Brennan Manning ,and I love his voice.  The book is a challenge to my spirit, mostly because I fall into these categories on a daily basis. I don’t want to, but I do.

             Somewhere along the way, the imposter taught me to put my best “face” forward. I have been aware of this for a while, its not a new epiphany. I struggle with it every single day.

      What I am desperate to avoid is putting my best “face”forward with GOD. I don’t want to struggle with that, I want it to come easy. I want every prayer, every song, every motion, every stand that I take, to be authentic. He knows me anyway. If I think I am fooling him, I am simply buying into what the imposter is telling me….that I am not good enough, not holy enough, that my REAL face, is not the face that Jesus saw that day on the cross, the day he looked darkness in the eye and died for me. But the truth is…it was, it was my REAL face and yours. He deserves nothing less now, every day.

     The beauty is that I have been transformed, my old self is a shadow that the imposter wants me to believe is the real thing. But, its not !!  I  feel like I am on the verge of a break through  in this area,  and wanted to share. Get the book,  it will make you think.

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