This might seem shocking to all you perfectionist multi- tasking , beautiful children raising people, but….My purpose , even in motherhood is to know God, to adore him and be adored by him. Even when harsh words are spoken, and wrong choices made…even when there is pain …. My purpose can’t be to raise perfect , or even good children…. But to know my father , to feel his love, and to REVEAL his love …to them. So when the crap has hit the fan, and for a moment I forget who I am….I don’t have to DO anything. Just sit there, or more likely, lay there , and let God love me. Let him hold me, and mold me , and make me more like him through every step and every misstep.